Hardest Job Ever

I have decided that being a stay at home mommy is the hardest job ever!!! I will be the first, well probably not the first to admit that it is extremely hard! I love having two boys, don't get me wrong, I love them with all of my heart. I would have to say that working full time in Virginia seemed a lot easier than staying at home all of the time and I don't know why. How could that be? I seemed to get more done when I worked and got home in the evening. First of all, Lee has absolutely no structure in his life right now until preschool starts, which I am going to go by there tomorrow and sign him up. He was so used to going to school in Va and playing with kids his age, he loved it, and I loved it! I loved his teacher, Ms. Theresa, she was the best. She loves all of the kids that go there like they are her own. She was always so proud of Lee just like we were. He seemed to be much calmer then, now he just likes to be naughty all the time. We went to church today and a friend picked the boys and I up because Harley had to work. The church is very close to our house but I am just not ready to walk yet because I am still not used to the heat. I thought Virginia was hot, this is much hotter. I sweat soooo bad, my face, arms, and even my legs sweat! Lee was pretty good at church and actually enjoyed Children's Church, and Easton was very good in the nursery so I got to enjoy the whole church service without someone coming to get me because one of them was crying or wanting to leave. After church we went to the NEX for lunch and then to walk around. Lee was awful, Heather if you are reading this I am so so sorry! He couldn't sit still to eat his lunch, he was all over Heather, and making loud noises, that's just the beginning. After we ate we went to walk around which didn't last long at all. Easton hasn't been feeling good, he has had a pretty bad cold and he was crying because he was tired and wanted out of his carseat. Lee was running through the store like a madman!! Heather's little boy is 15 months and Lee wants to play with him, but doesn't realize how much younger he is. He kept on grabbing Logan and at one poing I thought he was going to pull this poor child out of the cart. He wouldn't listen to me at all, so I told him we were going outside, of course he didn't want to go so he starts yelling and crying. I then had two crying kids carrying one and pulling the other by the hand trying to get out of the store as fast as I could. I wanted to burst into tears! After we got home, I sent him to his room for a while, that is when he knows he is in trouble and he came out about 7 minutes later and said he wanted to be a good boy. He did calm down some and has been pretty good for the rest of the day. I know this isn't a very positive blog but I just needed to vent. I know that I am extremely blessed to even be able to stay at home with my kids and I shouldn't be complaining about it but I guess I just need a lot of training and getting used to doing it. I have already done four loads of laundry, cooked, and cleaned, dishes, gave baths, and did I mention I still have about 4 more loads of laundry before I even get close to catching up? Laundry is the worse, I would rather clean the bathroom every day than do laundry. I need to get back to doing one load a day and that helps keep caught up pretty well. I don't want Harley to have to worry about doing these things on his days off. He is tired enough, even though it is only a 6 bed ICU, he is still tired. I can understand that not being as busy as you are used to can make you even more tired. He should be able to enjoy his time off with his family. So Harley, I know you will be reading this, I promise to keep up with the laundry! It is my downfall. I am pretty much OCD about the rest of the house staying clean, well we both are, but we are getting better at having some messes around and it doesn't bother us as much anymore. So, I think that I am done with my ranting and raving about being a full time mom but once I get the hang of it I am sure that I will love everything about it. I am still trying to get used to Guam and everything about it. Oh yeah, the puppy is a definite NO!! I drove 45 minutes yesterday to go see some puppies which were very cute but did not fall in love with one of them. No dog for a long time, like Aunt Lois said we can just put the dog thing on hold. Until Easton is potty trained and both boys can take much responsibility for a pet, they can wait! So sorry for the negative and down blog but I just needed to vent a little and I am feeling quite a bit better now. Off to do some more laundry!